Pitiful Lady

Bragging too much about yourself
how cool do you think you are?
From 1 – 10 how many your scale is?

You said you are mature enough
You call me childish and nonchalant
You said you are the icon of lady like
You call me ignorant and naïve

Yet you cry just because you broke up
Yet you throw tantrum just because things don't go as you like
Yet you keep talking about how ugly I am

No, I will just close my ears.

All the things that you’ve said about me
let me just considered that as compliment
if you ask me, do I hate you or not?

I am. I hate you too much
until I don’t know the bond between hating and obsession

Glad I realize as soon as possible, and realized that you are one of the obstacles
that I need to thankful for
God sent you to help me grow

We use to be best friend don’t we? Or do we?
why do we get mad over each other until this far?
aren’t you tired living in hatred?

You blame me, with all the bad things happen to you
You said you are mature enough
you call me childish and nonchalant
Let me be the one who laugh the loudest now

I have nothing to say to you anymore
I have no willingness to help you

You said you are mature enough
So, save yourself.

I don’t have much time mending with the bitch

Running away

It's not how i supposed to be.
This is not me, I am not like this at the first time
When is the first time anyway?
I forget....

Why do i keep running away? Why do i keep ignoring?
Why do i keep telling myself that being like this is okay?
Shouldn't i step on my own feet right now, and doing the best that i usually done

Oh, maybe because I don't have so many reasons right now to trying hard
to push myself to compete with the world.
or is it because, I scared?

I scared of getting hurt? getting down? and disappoint?
how pathetic....
what do you want to do then? running away?
running where? you just gonna ended up here
why do i keep circling back?
because you are too scared to jump

you keep screaming 'freedom' and act like a nonchalant kid
while you actually the one whom chained by the situation
why don't blame the situation then?
but aren't you the one who put yourself in?